Missing you

I have nightmares and can't sleep.
The loss of you is a wound so deep.

My mind recorded the times we had.
Knowing there will be no more memories makes me sad.

I struggle for answers to what went wrong.
I'll miss you my whole life, however long.

My world has changed to black and gray.
My tears come frequently every day.

I don't think my heart will heal.
I still can't accept that this is real.

Keeping you close is not enough.
Happiness and smiling is so tough.

I don't know who I am; I only know I'm not me.
A mother who lost her child is what people see.

How can I go on without you here?
Finding out there is no heaven is my greatest fear.

I'm trusting my God and the promises he said.
I picture a beautiful reunion in my head.

One more day, just one more time to hold my child
and ease my mind.

I hope you knew how much you meant
and how much I loved the child God sent.

My heart, my soul will never be the same.
I will always cry when I hear your name.

I can't erase the day you left; it will always haunt me.
A life cut short, a scream in the night, something not meant to see.

The wound I have from losing you is a wound like no other,
a broken heart of a grieving mother.

Tonight I can't sleep.
My pain's too deep
because I am missing you.