153 Days ... 5 months have passed ... there’s a flicker, I sense its presence. I’ve been mired in so much dissonance, so it will take a little more time. Fear stops me from letting it all in ... but the levee is about to burst ... It could be the self imposed deadlines, or maybe my heart is just tired ... I do know that flicker of courage means it’s time. I’m terrified, and that is ok.